Over and over

haha for several weeks I thought...it might work...you never know...she might turn around...but no I've been fooling myself....she's a cruel cold-hearted bitch who only used me to make herself feel better about herself....
and I'm ok with that now... I made a mistake...I misjudged her.....so I accept this as mu punishment....no problem...
but just in the least probable scenario that she did care about me as much as she cared what she had for dinner last night...then let this be her punishment....
I will never talk to her again....that's it...
from now on: she'll be the person on my list which occasionally comes on and goes off without even changing anything in me.....not even a thought whcih rises when she does...
I'm not bittered....I simply stopped loving her...as she did a long time ago about me.....and I still wish her all the best and a happy life from now on without me.....
just she doesn't exist for me in a way she once did.....
(I'm only angry with myself to have given her that place in my heart once)