My Eyes

You scored as Passion. You are very passionate whether that passion is good or evil has yet to be determined. You have great power over others and they seem to flock to your service. You are very competative almost to a fault. Perhaps you should let someone else win for a change? Mysterious 83% Passion 83% Eyes full of Pain 67% Diamond Eyes 50% What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!) created with QuizFarm.com

Ruining it just again

So as it was a known fact that I am uncapable of keeping anyone around me for longer than 6 months.I have decided just a few days ago to end things with Narges. You may wonder why as I have never been in love with anyone this badly for years.And yes I know she's the most beautifull, smart, classy and entertaining and most important of all mature girl I have ever had the fortune of laying my eyes on.She is probably the best thing which has ever happenned to me.

But let me enlighten you:

The fact of my emotional disfunctionality is a factor too great to be ignored. She is in a very delicate age and state. And the last thing I want to do is to hurt her. So therefor I'll take the blame upon me and I will end things before we have to. This way she won't feel dumped and I have done the right thing. And even though I suffer, this is the right thing to do.Maybe I am doomed to help others find their true love whilst I stay alone for years....and even though it hurts like hell....I have to refer to it simply as LIFE.

The tie

Yesterday I went to amsterdam with my cousin and his wife and strolling through the busy streets we went in some shops and there it was. The perfect gift for Iv, a tie she wanted for some time.
I bought it immediately and was relieved that one more thing was done off this years todo list :P
Anyway as I came home I got in the car and drove over to pick up the keys to the store and also to give the tie to her.
She was pleased with it and made put it on her, sitting on the cold stairs down there on her porch, I felt complete. At last someone I can feel comfortable doing things for. And appreciation in the right amount and the right atmosphere. Nothing can beat that. Even more true when you take into consideration that she looked fabulous with the tie on her.
how can one not love to be around her? Energetic and serious and at the same time playfull.... GOD!!

Meeting Narges

So 5 months after our first meeting on 24th of juli we met again yesterday.
I had promised her for the last week to go to her with the car. And as you can imagine I culdn't at the last moment, I even tried hiring a car to keep my promise. But as I'm not still 21 I couldn't even rent a car so I got up at half past 5 in the morning and took the train to meet her. There I was, 3,5 hours later, in Emmen where we had agreed to meet. I was so frustrated about the car thing, I was in a really bad mood. Anyways we went to a restaurant and had lunch and we talked and laughed and we exchanged gifts. I got her a ring with roses and a necklace to macth.


And she got me a leather bracelet, which I love.
She put it on my arm and I haven't taken it off since.

I love her. But with my stupidity I frustrated her so much yesterday we parted earlier than planned and I came back home. And now there is this really nasty tension between us. I hate that..... I'm planning on surprising her with a visit next thursday....Let's see how that goes.
I wanna borrow my cousins car. let's see how that turns out...I hope it's ok with him.

Your place or mine?

My date with Amrieta went quite well. Well no actually it didn't really. We met at Beursplein and headed off to Breakaway as usual. We had some drinks and food and laughed a lot and exchanged gifts for sinterklaas:) (yeah I know)
Anyway afterwards we went to a coffeeshop where we bought a joint and got high. But as the asshole I am I got grouchy as soon as we left breakaway so I spoiled the evening and had to send her home early.
As a consellation: She did love the keychain I got her.
Which you can see here:
http://nawidslr.blogspot.com/2006/12/your-place-or-mine.html
And I loved her gift aswell: A blue parker pen. One I have always wanted.
thanks again Amrieta!!

Anastacia

So today I went shopping with Iv for my date tomrrow night with Amrieta and my date on thrusday with Narges.
We had a great time... and I bought some gifts for both the dates...
Afterwards we took the train to Lombardijen and fom there she was to be picked up by her dad and I took the bus home.

Once on the bus, which I nearly missed by the way, I saw that every seat was taken except the one next to a gorgeous girl I have been attrackted to for a month or two now. But I have never had the guts to say anything to her.
Anyways I went and sat next to her and we started chatting. It seems her name is Anastacia and she's from Letland. She's a real beauty....she's 20 years old and studies chemistery in Delft.
As it turns out she lives like a few blocks from my house. Just 5 min walking distance.
Anyway I hope to see her more often. I like her a lot. Well we'll see how it turns out. Damn I like her............................