I want to say those words....those three famous words.....but I want to mean them when I say it out loud. The feeling is there...stronger than ever before....but the meaning isn't there.
I can't lose this one aswell.
It's been quite a while and I guess he was right when he told me what was wrong with my attitude. But what if I don't know how to behave in any another way anymore?
All I know is I don't want her to say: "paroles paroles"
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Heavens cloths
HAD I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
Dunya Festival
She complimented me on my photography on hyves and I thanked her for the inspiration it gave me.
We go talking and a week later all my plans for my day off fell in the water so I asked her for a drink in rotterdam and she agreed.
We had a blast.
lats sunday she called me up and we went to the Dunya Festival. She even came to pick me up. All I can do in the subway is to look at her big brown eyes. And that teasing smile of hers makes me wanna scream. Instead I smile back at her.
We have some drinks at the festival and OMG I realise I am complete with her...more than I ever was before...even with...well we know who...
We walk down the markets and she drags me to a nametag making guys. We read them al and we laugh. She suggests to make our own and wear it. So I buy her and myself one with the same text:
"Hossei & Nawid
Since
Dunya Festival
25-05-2008"
I put it on her and she puts it on me.
On the way back, waiting for the subway I stand close to her...close enough and all I want to do is to close my eyes and kiss her with all my heart, body and mind. I don't...I just don't. I don't want to scare her off.
She drives me home and we sayour goodbyes.
She's wonderful. I 'm planning to take her out on a romantic beach picknick and then dine at the restaurant at the top of euromast. I believe it to be the most appropriate thing to do for someone this fantastic.
We go talking and a week later all my plans for my day off fell in the water so I asked her for a drink in rotterdam and she agreed.
We had a blast.
lats sunday she called me up and we went to the Dunya Festival. She even came to pick me up. All I can do in the subway is to look at her big brown eyes. And that teasing smile of hers makes me wanna scream. Instead I smile back at her.
We have some drinks at the festival and OMG I realise I am complete with her...more than I ever was before...even with...well we know who...
We walk down the markets and she drags me to a nametag making guys. We read them al and we laugh. She suggests to make our own and wear it. So I buy her and myself one with the same text:
"Hossei & Nawid
Since
Dunya Festival
25-05-2008"
I put it on her and she puts it on me.
On the way back, waiting for the subway I stand close to her...close enough and all I want to do is to close my eyes and kiss her with all my heart, body and mind. I don't...I just don't. I don't want to scare her off.
She drives me home and we sayour goodbyes.
She's wonderful. I 'm planning to take her out on a romantic beach picknick and then dine at the restaurant at the top of euromast. I believe it to be the most appropriate thing to do for someone this fantastic.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
The walk
Well gotta be honest....thought it would be a start to something I'd refuse but it wasn't the start of anything. It was just the end.
I'm so relieved.
Now I can fully focus on my true love!!
I'm so relieved.
Now I can fully focus on my true love!!
Monday, May 05, 2008
Devine intervention
Have I found her?
Have I found the one?
Is this reward for doing something entirely selfless for someone else?
I hope so. I cannot believe the beauty, the innocence and the subtle naughtiness.
If it works out, I might regain faith in devine intervention.
Have I found the one?
Is this reward for doing something entirely selfless for someone else?
I hope so. I cannot believe the beauty, the innocence and the subtle naughtiness.
If it works out, I might regain faith in devine intervention.
Skating
Called me up to go skating for a bit. I agreed.
One thing lead to another and she asked me to meet her bf. I dunno whether it's a compliment or just a rub down?
either way
at the end she asked me what I thought about our relationship and for the first time I realized what it really meant and I actually told her.
I told her it was destructive for me to be with her. And that she was the reason I was so alone and unhappy. Offcourse she did not understand but I didn't expect anything else anyways.
One thing lead to another and she asked me to meet her bf. I dunno whether it's a compliment or just a rub down?
either way
at the end she asked me what I thought about our relationship and for the first time I realized what it really meant and I actually told her.
I told her it was destructive for me to be with her. And that she was the reason I was so alone and unhappy. Offcourse she did not understand but I didn't expect anything else anyways.
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