The Bitch

I never was this angry with anyone.....even when ppl hit me...even when ppl tried to kill me....I was never this hurt as I am now.
This little bitch ruined two beautiful years of my life..... the top years....until now that is.....
She pretended to care....she pretended to love.....she pretended and yet the worst thing is that she lied....she never talked ...she ...she...she... the rotten piece of shit......
she never loved...she never cared...she never even listened.....
I sent her gifts ......I loved her with all my heart and soul.....I gave up a part of myself to the thought of her.....she never even cared.....I fought my parents...I fought my friends...I fought myself.....all for her and her love...and the bitch didn't even care....
She got my gifts a month ago I discovered today...she never even mailed me...not to say thank you...but just to acknowledge the fact that she received them....the cruel heartless girl.....
even a guy can't be that heartless....
but I promised myself....I have shed enough tears for this piece of shit....it's enough...
enough is enough
she can die...
I hope she will
I hope some day she stands before me and I can say these words to her and just watch her crumble in shame and cry but cannot argue......that's the day I might forgive one shed tear
she's not even worth talking/writing about.....

Busy

I haven't been able to write much lately....I have been busy with college stuff..... it has been great but also very stressing. Anyway that's life right?? :P
What I wanted to say is that I have been writing again since a week orso and this is my latest creation:
Today
I feared the day
roses became velvet
against the sky so black
and the stars
stopped shining so brightly

Now, this night is cold
stars don’t shine
I’ll freeze to death
but I don’t care
cause I’m alone
you left me yesterday

“Friendship is a pile of junk
with a thin layer of chrome”

I have no great war
I have no great depression
my great war is a spiritual one
my great depression is my life

No one sees in the dark
but not all is revealed by light
sunshine and shadows
only minor masks
to camouflage reality

written by: Nawid S.

Forgotten, Not Forgiven

hmm...after a few weeks I have again written a poem a few days ago....I wrote it because of some hity things I have done and have happenned and as I want to call it myself it is one of my best poems ever. So here it is:

Forgotten, Not Forgiven

Today as I stood before the mirror
I looked deep into my eyes
and for the first time ever
I actually felt sorry for her

Sometimes I wished
I had some kind of
incurable disease
so it would show
in how much pain I really am
and it's all because of her

Someone release me from this hell
someone relieve me of this pain
someone please
leave me here to bleed
leave me to die
but please no more lies

I wish I could
gather all my tears
so I could
drown her in them

It's too late now
we have gone too far
maybe I've tried too hard
to believe in our love

What are you really looking for?
another partner to abuse and to adore?

Though I'm trying to keep a view
I'm losing myself to the twilight

Never-ending roads
I have taken,
starting to wonder:
"Where did they begin?"
"Where will they end?"
"Will they ever end?"

This plot is simple
and I know what to do
I should count to a hundred
and forget
not forgive
just forget
everything
everyone
FOREVER


Written by: Nawid S.