How naive can a person be?

And I thought after wanting to do it for months...and being so honest with her about wanting to do it.....I really thought when I would have the reason for doing it....it will satisfy me afterwards...but guess what i couldn't......After she left me horribly...all I did was to go out and "run" like I always did after talking to Jess.
Afterall she hurt me just as much as she did. Just faster!!
Anyway besides that....I just couldn't do it....I tried...I really tried..... but I really couldn't.
What does that makes me now?
Lifeless?
Numb?
A man?
Yeah well I guess that is how we are created aren't we? Hurt a guy untill he gets really tough and stops caring. Then blame him for it. I always thought women were right!!
How naive can a person be?