Edam

Last week on monday I woke up at 6 am and showered and drove my dad to work and then flattened to Leiden.
That was where I would meet Narges.
I had planned a great ctytrip but everybody bailed on me except her.
As I got there she was already waiting for me....wearing her long sexy coat and her pertinent thick hair was flowing in the wind the way only waves can crash on the beach.

She got in and we drove to Edam....a small village near ijsselmeer.....it was quite a nice trip and when it finally stopped raining we got out of the car and went to the beach just to take some pictures and goof around.....It was great. Just what I needed. Only thing missing was....again....the chemistry.
Hmmm I am so frustrated right now.....Everything goes well and then ...
...one word....
one sentence....
one gaze....
one sigh....
destroys everything

I love her...I really do...she's perfection in it's simplicity...not because she can do so much for me...but just because how much I could do for her.
Loving her is so easy.....only if she would let me....I hate her for denying me that.....
Yet I can only think of her.....damn me.....

How I wish I could be insensitive like others.....