Change

And there I am, sitting at my desk, once again with my hands hovering milimetres above the keypad, wondering what to do, what to write.
As I think of the useless hours I am spending and the time that I'm wasting, I realise that this is just how it is and there is little I can change about it.
I'm outraged. How can this be?

I think I have gone mad, going against my own philosophy.
"Don't accept the things you cannot change,
Change the things you cannot accept"

But I think I have already, on a subconcious level, accepted this fact. That is what really annoys me. Not having control over every single aspect of my life.
What if this is the way it should be? What if there is nothing I can do?

But no, I WILL change this!
I have done it once, I can do it again!!