Fundamentalism

This morning I got out of my routine and went to see her at her school, told her I loved her. For the first time.
This afternoon she called me to meet up again. I didn't want to but I did. Just for her sake.
Went all the way through the damp terrain and weather.
Only to hear that she wants to end things. She fights me. Walks home alone.
I do the same.

4 hours later she calls me to say how sorry she is but it's better this way for me. She doesn't want her problems to be inflicted upon ME.
Ohh come on.....

Cliche cliche
Is it fundamentally impossible for me to be happy for more than two consecutive weeks?
Should I only pursue unattainable love? Because there is some certainty in that! In that case I'll be consistently unhappy. That is also a great achievement.

I'm starting to wonder which alternative is the best choice!