Three words

I want to say those words....those three famous words.....but I want to mean them when I say it out loud. The feeling is there...stronger than ever before....but the meaning isn't there.
I can't lose this one aswell.
It's been quite a while and I guess he was right when he told me what was wrong with my attitude. But what if I don't know how to behave in any another way anymore?

All I know is I don't want her to say: "paroles paroles"