In Control

Today I went to give blood. I had decided to becoem a donor after hearing that it would clean my system.....
anyway so I did.
and I fainted and fell off my chair.
I haven't had such a strange feeling as I had today since I was a computer geek and I shut down my pc at night. hahaha just joking.
it was very weird......I was suddenly somewhere else...... it was dark and I tried to wake up...but I couldn't.....and it was good too.......it felt like a warm sumer morning just the second before you wake up.......without the after taste of sleep.......I could hear everything....but it was all blurry......it was like I was drifting away heelplessly away from eeverything that I knew........but it felt ok.
I felt total paradox.....but on the bright side....absolutely no limitations.......

In nineteen years of my life on earth those were the only two minutes of my life that I have been truly and utterly FREE
in every meaning of the word.

I was untouchable.
I was no longer in control......I had no responsibilities.......losing all fear is losing all hope......losing all hope is freedom

From now on...I'm going to try not to control every aspect of my life......
cause only then I will achieve my only goal:
Freedom!!