She

Today is one of the warmest days in months....it's like 27 degrees.....
She called me out of sleep..... it was a pleaseant surprise I have to say...
yet I was very thoughtless and tactless talking to her(though I know she doesn't mind...after three years she knows me better than that to get annoyed or anything) but I do blame myself for it.....
anyway hours later I saw her again..... she was in a rush yet she made time to come and see me and return me some things......
I stood on top of the stairs watching her coming up.......the sun slowly enlightening her face and the wind in her hair.......she was wearing a coat I had seen before but this time with a fur collar....it praticularly matched her hair color and sturcture.....(in a split second I couldn't escape the thought whether that was a coincidence or not?)
She immediately noticed Iw s wearing the shirt she bought me two weeks ago....she always notices every little thing about me.....but she's usually a riddle to me......that hurts me
I like her...no actually I love her....I love her to death....but no one can know about this.....especially I don't want HER to know this.....
Will we ever be together???
(maybe I don't even want to know)